I used to blog here all the time, then it became something I didn't want. Xanga started out as my escape. It was where I came to vent. I had real friends here who truly cared how I felt. Then, somehow, while trying to promote my budding writing career, my blog became commercial. I was writing articles to increase my footprints with the intent to advertise here, and sell my blog, or possibly pick up my own blogging gig. I wrote thing that I thought people wanted to read, and none of it was things I truly wanted to write. Writing became a chore, and a strain. When all the fun was gone, so was my motivation to continue blogging.

I have cooled my heels on the writing thing for a while. The crappy agent that picked my book up is never going to sell it, and I can't seem to write more than 25 pages of my second novel. Writing is my life, and It's not something I want to back away from, but I had to take a step back for a while and analyze why I was writing. I realized that I was doing it for all the wrong reasons, and by the time I started to write for me again, I was so blocked that I couldn't even pick up a pen. I miss writing, but I miss the ease with which it used to come. Now days I struggle to get a few good sentences down.

I decided recently to explore yet another talent of mine, and I wrote a few songs. I got some good feedback on the lyrics from a composer who wrote a melody for my song. It's not at all what I had in mind, so I decided not to record the tract. I have written my own melody, (Which I can only sing, since I have no muscial talent) and I'm currently seeking a composer to lay down a tract for it. I should be able to do this for $200.00.

So, I've written a book, tons of poems, a few country songs, had a chapter published in a book, seen my poems in tons of newspapers, published dozens of articles online, and I haven't made a single dime off any of it. I guess that's how you know when you're a writer. I write because it's what makes my heart beat. Everyday of my life, I feel the need to capture some aspect of it on paper. I want to share my life with the world through a series of enriching words. Wether it be fiction or not, there's a part of me in everything I write.

Nickole

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Haven't posted anything in forever thought I'd put this one here and see what kind of comments I could get.

Nickole